Monday | August 6th, 2018
I’m finally there. My last semester of college starts one week from yesterday. I’m excited because I am one step closer to graduating from college, but right now that is the only thing I feel excited about.
“Close to graduating from college”
Growing up I was under the impression that by the time I got to this point where I’m graduating from college, my life would be somewhat together. I’d be in a relationship. I would have a starter job that would lead to my career someday. I would also be moved into my own apartment. Instead, the idea of being in a relationship with someone is annoying, I’m unemployed, and I still live at home with my parents.
“Failing at everyday life”
I was always under the impression that getting close to graduating college would be signaling my life turning into something better, but I’m not really feeling that. I’m not really looking forward to graduating at all. I see these people leading successful lives around me, and I still feel like I’m failing at everyday life… It just sucks!
I hear so many people say “don’t worry about it” and “you still have so much time”, and I’m like that is so not helpful or reassuring. Yes, I know not everyone does things at the same speed, but that still doesn’t make me feel like I’m anywhere close to having my life together like I used to think it would be by the time I got to this point.
“I can’t turn back time”
As much as I wish I could turn back time and warn myself to prepare differently, I can’t. The only thing I can do is try to enjoy this last semester of college before adulthood really starts. I’m terrified out of my mind, but all I can do is try my best(no matter how cheesy that sounds).
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